As a child

A dark side of mine and many others childhood.

Is parents beating their children abuse?

What is abuse?

Abuse is when they lose control.

Get extremely angry.

Show it on their helpless kid.

I am a little ashamed to admit it but,

I still shiver at the feeling i get when i remember my dad taking out his belt to beat me and  my mother stopping him.

I try to push those memories away.Bury them somewhere inside ,lost.

Because all is well now.I don't get beaten.Not obviously.I'm 19.

Because i know they love me.

But i still have a doubt.

Abuse is also when they claim they love you still lose control.

Was my perception changed unknowingly? Do i know now? I do not know.

So was i abused as a child? Was i?